Whenever you feel down because of the things not going as per your expectation,you feel bad. I do self analysis too. This time I was more than conviced that whatever I have are because of the hard work and the great efforts I have put in. It is not that I am an atheist and I believe in agnosticism. I do beleive there is an almighty, who controls everything.
Could not refrain myself from putting my feelings on the repository. It was December 1st, 2009.I Started of the day with lots and lots of energy and a great enthusiam, as it was the most important day for me in 2009. I was to take my CAT on the day. My test started at 10:00 AM sharp. For the first 45-50 minutes it was kinda great going. Around 11:00 am, I picked up a headache along with some cold. Temperature in the room was too low. I asked the person concerned to increase the AC temperature if possible. Got a reply that since there are many systems running parallely, it is not possible to lower the mercury level further.I felt like a gone case for me. I was trying hard to concentrate and get the questions done. I was taking double the time required for a question. Came back home totally depressed with a thought in my mind. The thought was revolving around all the incidents which have happened since 2001. I always had a feeling that whatever I have, all are hard earned. The luck factor has never been on my side. Each time this thought creeps into my mind, my sister will try to appease me by saying whatever happens, happens for good.This time I called her up and said now its enough and my faith in the almighty has withered. And I started enumerating the major happenings right from1999.
1. 1999: I matriculated with 84.8 % marks. Could not get admission in DPS, bokaro because of my 63 marks in social studies, though I was the one who used to get good marks in that subject.
2. 2001: After my IIT-JEE screening, fell severly ill and could not prepare well for my IIT mains.
3. December 1st, 2009: Everything was going fine as expected, but picked up headache at the crucial time.
After listening to all these, even my sister agreed that luck has never been on my side.
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